When I Fell for You

When I fell for you, I was still just a boy, With buried wounds underneath all the noise. You looked through the armor and reached for my heart, Saw every place I kept in the dark. I knew that your arms were the closest thing to home, But I didn’t know love meant refusing to roam. I thought falling was a feeling that time could undo— I never knew covenant until I failed you. I fell for your kindness. I fell for your grace. I fell for the peace That I found in your face. But love was more costly Than I understood then— It stays through the breaking And chooses again. When I fell for you, I didn’t know what love would cost. I didn’t know my fear Would make me run until I’m lost. But after all these years, One thing remains forever true: I’m not falling backward anymore— I’m still falling for you. It wasn’t your beauty alone that drew me near, It was the light in your soul cutting through every fear. The kindness within you, the grace in your eyes, The way you kept loving while I lived behind lies. You carried a light I did nothing to earn, A flame I dismissed while I watched our life burn. I should have protected what God let me hold, But I wounded the heart that brought mine from the cold. Your light showed the selfishness living in me, A man so consumed with his pain he couldn’t see. I made myself central; I guarded my pride, Too weak for the truth, so I chose how to hide. I called myself wounded as though that made it right, But wounds may explain—they don’t justify flight. I shattered what followed while saving my skin, And traded our covenant to shelter my sin. Your light told the truth I was too weak to face: Love had never failed me— I had run from its grace. You were worthy of honesty. You were worthy of fight. I abandoned the woman God gave me as light. I love you—and I’m sorry for the pain I chose to make, For laying at your feet a weight that wasn’t yours to take. I blamed you for the wounds in me you never caused or gave, Then used the hurt inside my heart to justify escape. I made your heart the enemy when mine refused to change. I covered my deception by attaching it to your name. But you were never my excuse; you were never mine to blame. You were the light that told the truth—and I ran from its flame. When I fell for you, I didn’t know what love would cost. I didn’t know my fear Would make me run until I’m lost. But after all these years, One thing remains forever true: I’m not falling backward anymore— I’m still falling for you. When I fell for you, I only knew the light I saw. Now I know that faithful love Means giving Christ my all. I cannot change the years behind Or take away what you went through. But I can tell the truth today: I’m sorry. I love you. And I’m still falling for you.