My Dumpster Fire

Welcome to my dumpster fire! Watch the smoke climb higher and higher! Every dream I set on fire! Every idol I called Messiah! Every bridge I chose to burn! Every lesson I refused to learn! Every warning I ignored! Every mile away from the Lord! Welcome to my dumpster fire! Every secret fed the fire! Every lie became a chain! Every smile concealed the pain! I built this mess with my own hands! Brick by brick… grain by grain! If grace can reach this pile of ash… Then no one is too far gone! Thought I knew what freedom looked like. Turns out I only worshipped me. I had a wife who truly loved me. Still I chose what I wanted to see. Two little girls called me Daddy. I should’ve fought for them every day. Instead I fought the God who loved me… Then wondered why I lost my way. Bible sitting on the nightstand. Dust collecting on the page. I knew the truth… I knew the verses… Still walked willingly away. Nobody made me cross that line. Nobody forced my hand. The hardest truth I’ve ever spoken… I became that man. One more compromise. One more hidden lie. One more “I’ll change tomorrow.” One more reason why. Smoke kept rising. Vision blurred. I stopped hearing… Your Word. Welcome to my dumpster fire! Every kingdom built on pride! Every promise left abandoned! Every truth I set aside! Look what sin can slowly build! Look what selfishness requires! I called it life… You called it death… Welcome to my dumpster fire! My dad saw the train wreck coming. My wife begged me not to leave. Heaven spoke through both of them… I still chose not to believe. Years rolled by like burning paper. Ashes drifting through my hands. Second marriage. More destruction. Finally forced to understand. I don’t blame the war I carried. I don’t blame my wounded mind. PTSD may haunt my memories… But pride was always mine. The battlefield exposed my heart. It didn’t write my story. Only Christ could step into these flames… And steal them for His glory. I BUILT THIS! I FED THIS! I DEFENDED THIS! I HATED THIS! NO MORE HIDING! NO MORE BLAMING! NO MORE RENAMING… SIN! Lord… don’t waste this wreckage. Don’t waste these scars. Don’t waste these tears. Don’t waste these years. If my children remember anything… Let them remember this… A proud man built the fire… A faithful God… Walked into it. Welcome to my dumpster fire! Where mercy burns brighter than judgment! Where truth stands taller