Every Day Was Sin

Morning broke. I knew the truth. Still I chose another road. Bible sitting on the table. Still I carried someone else’s load. Every sunrise gave me mercy. Every evening found me gone. You kept calling me by name… I kept proving You was wrong. I learned to live beside conviction. Made a home where guilt had been. The hardest part wasn’t the first step… It was waking up… and choosing it again. No lightning fell. No mountains moved. Just one more day… Refusing You. One more lie. One more breath. One more step… Toward living death. I can’t rewrite the years. I can’t untell the lies. I can’t unbreak the promises… Or dry my daughters’ eyes. I called rebellion freedom. I called my flesh my friend. Looking back with honest eyes… Every day…was sin. I wasn’t blind. I knew Your Word. I heard my wife. I heard Your voice. She fought for what I couldn’t see. I still made my choice. I wasn’t chasing something better. I was running from myself. Trading holy for convenient. Trading treasure for a shelf. Every day You stayed the same. Every day I drifted more. I wasn’t breaking one command… I was declaring who was Lord. Pride grows quiet. Sin grows slow. Nobody wakes up… Planning to let go. One more compromise. One more disguise. Until the mirror… Won’t meet your eyes. I HEARD THE TRUTH! AND I TURNED AWAY! I KNEW YOUR WORD! AND STILL I STAYED! NOT ONE NIGHT! NOT ONE FALL! EVERY…SINGLE…DAY! You never stopped being holy. You never stopped calling me home. You never broke Your covenant… I broke my own. And somehow mercy still reached farther… Than all the miles I ran. The cross was standing where I left it… Waiting for this broken man. I can’t restore the years. But I can tell the truth. I can stand before my family… With nothing left to lose. Your grace is not permission. It’s the reason that I live. Because the blood that bought forgiveness… Is stronger than my sin. I will not hide. I will not rename it. I will not excuse it. I’ll call it…What You called it. And I’ll spend the rest of my life… Walking - In the opposite direction.